I wanted to share a little story about what I AM HERE is meaning for me right now.
I am not pregnant, but I have put on enough weight this past 9-10 months to bring a baby to full term. Probably even a little extra. I don’t feel good in my body. While dancing makes my heart, head, and soul feel freaking fantastic, it’s taking a toll on my body. And my body is taking a toll on me. My person. My mental health. Here is what I know... I AM HERE FOR IT. I have gained and lost weight in the past. Many times. Too many to count. It’s been a battle since I was a child. It’s part of who I am. It’s a struggle I will always struggle with. And I am here for it.
I think of all the people that have died this year. Some I knew well, some I loved, and some were strangers....And it makes me cringe. Then it makes me so so grateful that I am here!!!! I am not able to teach in the same way I did pre-pandemic. And I am here for that too, I pivoted. And guess what??? People still show up to my outdoor classes. In 96 degree heat, and in 19 degrees freeezing cold. They are here for it too.
Where am I going with all this? I don’t know. I just know that I am still an awesome Oula instructor. I know that my classes don’t give a single fuck if I can jump as high, or if I run out of breath, or if I have to ask someone to co-teach with me (or mostly Kelly Lynae volunteers, because she is an angel).
And I know I am so grateful for this Oula community. I AM HERE was my training song. It’s so incredibly special to me. And Oula is so incredibly special. I know I don’t “LOOK” like a typical fitness instructor. I knew that when I signed up to be an instructor, and here I am some 2 1/2 years later, still not looking the part. But I AM HERE... still believing in myself. Sharing my I AM HERE playlist in hope it will inspire you, or even just to share it because sharing is caring. And I do both of those things very well.